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Monday, May 14, 2007

I'm Back...

... after a crazy couple of weeks of internet connection hell, getting ready for NSD, recovering from NSD, and just being pregnant and tired on my part - LOL!

I'm starting to get to that yucky hormonal stage of being pregnant that is no fun at all, I swear! I was just starting to think how great it all was, how nice it is to have a bump and wear pregnant clothes, etc, etc... then the hormones kicked in - LOL! I swear if I look at another piece of maternity clothing in black, black, black, I'm going to scream! Not to mention the fact that I burst into tears at the drop of a hat... I think it's just getting to the point where the initial excitement has, I don't know, not worn off, but isn't the main thing anymore. And now the reality has set in... it's really going to happen, only 12 weeks away (yikes), no work, living on a really tight budget, no experience of having a baby, and it's just starting to freak me out. Just a tad. Don't get me wrong, I'm so excited still, and I just can't wait to meet this little person and hold them and love them... but the other part of me is absolutely terrified of being a mother, of having a huge responsibility. I won't be able to just pick up and go out when I feel like it because I'll have this little person who relies solely on me for every need, and I guess I'm scared of change. I'm not good with change... What if I don't know how to look after a baby? How will I cope with no sleep? And what if my work doesn't want me back after my maternity leave? I don't know, I think I'm probably thinking too much into everything, and freaking out about things that I really don't need to be, but I'm just so emotional at the moment, and it's driving me batty!

Ahhhhh... that's better! Excuse my rant - I just needed to get it off my chest - whew!!
So... I got my first ever Mother's Day present yesterday!! I felt a bit silly cos I'm not really a Mum yet, but I thought it was so sweet of Marty to get me a special gift... of course it had me in tears (over the pancakes that he cooked me for breakfast - LOL)!! From Marty and the little one, I got a lovely little gold pendant - a free-hanging heart with a little heart inside which is meant to be me with the baby inside - isn't he cute?? I love my husband, I'm a lucky girl... go on, make me well up again!!

Anyways, as for the bump, I actually did another page for the Emily Powers Spin-A-Lift challenge on the SSD blog (no, this is not a joke), so this is what I'm pretty much looking like at the moment:

That was when I was in a better spirit about things - LOL!
Ummm... I have some other things in the works, but I just can't spill the beans just yet. But so exciting for me personally, and creatively I guess too! I'll keep you posted as news comes to hand...

In product news, on NSD I released a few little goodies:


One of my fantastic CT members, Kresta, put this little album together with My Sunshine, and I think it is just the cutest!
And, there was this sweet little kit that I put together as I'm on a cutesy floral kick at the moment - LOL!

... and then the Chalky Swirls, just a little embellie/brush pack:
I know, three products in one week!! It was a busy week, and my internet connection chose the absolute best time in the world to go crazy on me... never mind!
And then, this week I've got this funky kit in store:

I'm just loving the colours in this one, and it's so summery and whimsy!

Anyways, that's pretty much it for me this week... I've had a whinge so I feel a bit better now! Thanks for reading if you got this far, and I hope you are all having a wonderful day!

:) Zoe

2 comments:

KendiRN said...

Hang in there sweets, the hormonal haze is normal and all of your feelings are to be expected. I am sure you will do fine!
Hugz,
KendiRN70{AT}aol{DOT}com

Kristine said...

Hey girl, I remember all those same feelings right before I was ready to deliver my first... I promise it will be just fine! You will kick into survival mode and will amazingly (!) figure things out on your own! Just wanted to say I stalk your store on a regular basis because I think you're style is fantastic! When is your next CT call ?!? LOL! Take care!